My friend amy and i have had some crazy ideas over the last few years, but i think this one would have to rate as one of our best. After seeing 'take the lead' (which i still havent seen, but desperately wish to do so) she proposed that we should take our life into our own hands and do all the things we've always wanted to but never had the time or courage to try. Of course, i do bugger-all with my days so i hastily agreed. We're starting off with a '30 day challenge' which i'm apprehensive about. For 30 days we are going on a health kick and banning two things from our diet that we eat often but is really unhealthy. Shes giving up practically everything because she wants to be much healthy, but i'm just sticking to the two things. Potato Cakes and Cordial. I dont know how i'll live. Combine the loss of these glorious foods with an hours exercise a day, and i think i am living in hell. But i've always wanted to be healthier and this is the only way i know how so this is how it will be done!

We are also taking dancing lessons. I've always wanted to dance but never had the courage to do it by myself. With amy, i am (hopefully) going to do latin ballroom beginners lessons during the holidays. It will be awesome, at the moment we're trying to rope some of our other friends into trying it as well.

I've always wanted to play the piano, and i think i'm going to try and learn. Our piano player at church is really good and teaches as her profession so i was gonna ask her if she could possibly give me a couple of lessons. Thanks to prisoner of hope i now have so awesome songs that i want to learn.

We aim to get our drivers license by the end of the year so we have vowed to have a one hour lesson once a week. This doesnt add up to the expected 120 hours practise needed to get your P's but it'll help.

So please pray i have the strength to continue with this!

Well here I am... I really should be doing something productive like studying but that will come later. I really haven’t got anything to say but I feel I should really write something. Sometimes reality gets you down and it’s much nicer to live in fantasy. Everything in life has a purpose, school, work, money and the like. Sometimes I just want to do something that has no purpose. Just for a change. Something that isn’t a means to an end. Something just for me. Something that doesn’t really mean anything. Something that doesn’t need to be analysed. It’s been a while since I’ve done anything like that. With exams coming up, everyone is stressing out. Stress is horrible but it comes so easily. I’m a worrier. I worry about everything, but I have come to learn that if you worry about everything- you have nothing to enjoy because you’re always worrying what people think or when it will end. So that’s my aim for the holidays after exams. NO WORRIES. Like those very wise people at Disney studios created in the Lion King... HAKUNA MATATA.

Its my mums birthday today... YAY... CAKE!!

Well the long awaited day had come. It was last saturday. My brothers 21st. He had been looking forward to it for AGES. I suppose i should explain. My brother has Downs Syndrome, and as much as i used to hate the fact that he was different, now i love him because of it (i would love him either way but you get what i mean). So, like any birthday, he was excited. In the days leading up to friday i got the 'only two sleeps to go' wake up call in the morning. Then it was the 'only one sleep to go'. Then on the morning of his birthday, he woke everyone up saying that it was his birthday and then proceeded to get back into bed so that we could give him presents and breakfast in bed. How cute is that. Anyway, he made us buy a separate cake to take to his school to share with everyone, like you did when you were little. He arrived home from school that day and was so happy. He was giggling all over the place at any little thing. My mum ordered fish and chips for dinner and he laughed when she said cramburger instead of hamburger. He cracked up when i dropped a book on the floor and he was so excited as we left for church. That night we hand one of the infamous 'fish and chip' nights at our church. Basically all the people from the neighbourhood as well as the members of the church get together in the church hall, eat dinner, listen to the band play and have generally a great night. This night happened to fall on daniels birthday. He MADE SURE my grandmother made him her famous sponge cake (complete with icing of course) and placed it himself on a trolly. He then told the band that he was ready and they stopped singing and introduced daniel and explained it was his birthday. He then preceeded to wheel his own cake out into the centre of the room so everyone could see him (no one could ever say he was shy) and stood there and waited until everyone had sung happy birthday to him. It was the funniest thing i have seen for a long time. I'm so proud of him! I havent even got to the party yet, oh well... i'll talk about that next time!

I feel really guilty . Well on tuesday it was Anzac Day, a day when we australians commemorate all those patriotic fellows in the military fallen in any of the great wars. And Get a Day off work, school, any of the like! YAY! And like all public holidays, my mum and i spend the day together, usually doing something very enjoyable, like shopping! Well, i'm out of a job, so i have no income. And we went shopping! Not the best thing to do in my situation. But i set myself a budget. And it would have worked too, if we hadnt gone to DFO where they were having SALES! Now, i'm usually a very strong willed person but when it comes to clothes and bargains... i tend to get a little nutty. Needless to say, i have absolutely NO cash whatsoever now. But at least i have a nice new wardrobe. I still feel a little guilty though. One of my friends said it was buyers remorse, but i dont regret what i bought.... just that i had to pay for it!

Well the other day i got to work... right on time! Anyway, the boss comes up to me and says that they have sold the business and, in a very polite way, that i was out of a job. I work, well worked i guess it is now, in a juice bar in north melbourne. Not incredibly stressfull work, which is nice. When there are no customers we just sit around and sing along to the radio. Its so fun! And i absolutely love the people i work with. Now i have to go out job hunting, which is always a joy. NOT. And i know i'm not going to be able to find somewhere where i'm paid to not do anything, so it looks like i'm actually going to have to start working. Damn!